Growing Up in Quarantine
Posted On April 30, 2020
The world is in turmoil, and yet I’ve been given more responsibility and become more stressed than I have in the past. I’m growing up in this quarantine and losing the last bits of childish innocence I think I had left.
Major Changes in a Month
This past month has been a whirlwind of experiences. A little over a month ago, Drake University announced that classes would be online for the rest of the semester. In my first blog post, I was more concerned with how I was able to keep in contact with my friends and classmates. This last month, its been more about keeping up with my academic commitments, and staying healthy. The state of the nation, and then the world, is tumultuous. I’ve had a difficult time, to say the least, in keeping an optimistic outlook and finding the motivation for my classes. And yet, I think I’ve passed the worst of it. Finals season is upon us at Drake, but I know what I need to do to get all of my work done.
Wrapping Up an Odd Semester
I’ve been pretty fortunate over the years to have relatively low-key finals weeks. While many of my classes do have big projects that are due during the last three weeks of the semester, they’ve been spaced out nicely. Furthermore, I have time to complete my final projects.
- This website itself is one of those projects
- I’ve already been given my final paper prompt for two classes
- One class just has weekly assignments instead of a final, and
- My last class has a group project that’s been in the works since the beginning of the month.
Knowing myself as well as I do, having all of these assignments laid out in front of me is both good and bad. It’s definitely good that I have the opportunity to get assignments done as I have the time for them. However, having everything in front of me is a pretty easy way for me to become overwhelmed. Online classes make me feel like deadlines are further away since my schedule is so up in the air – even with my job. This is especially annoying since April flew by so much quicker than March did.
Ending the semester is also a bit worrying because the expectation that I’ve placed upon myself is to be productive over the summer. This will come with my job, and potentially an internship at the Beaverdale Farmers Market. I’m excited for these opportunities. Yet, the internship all depends on how safe it is for people to go to farmers markets. The Des Moines Farmers Market announced a virtual kick-off for at least the first three weeks of the market. I know I’m not the only one worried about my financial future, but the stress is still there – both financially and other kinds.
I’ve been pretty stressed and anxious these past few weeks, so I’ve been trying to take some time for myself. I’m still watching a lot of series on Disney+, and this weekend I found an old favorite.
nostalgia, and going back to my childhood
My nostalgia came from watching The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe this weekend with my roommate Josie. Narnia was one of the first fantasy universes that I was a fan of as a child. So I used the nostalgia and happiness from that as a way to calm down.
This nostalgia then drove me to think about how much I’ve grown up since watching the series. The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe was released when I was five, so there’s been a big change that way. Watching each of these characters, who are children by all accounts, deal with such an upheaval of their own lives was surprisingly similar to my own experience in this past month. It feels like we as a society have begun to fight a battle against a formidable foe. But the characters in the film are able to do something about it; whereas, it’s safest for us to do nothing, and stay at home.